shrugs.
i got little cut from a ring file.
like so painful and itchy.
feel like slotting thelittle pen knife on top.
i know i wont though. :D
the little cut on my wrist.
its a small matter la. (:
i know how to take care of myself.
hah.
gracy ong she went to wedding dinner ytd.
so cant talk to her.
i wonder hows everybody la.
no matter how big the cut, it cant be compared to the way my heart aches.

oh no.
i'm seriously.
so so bored can.
hahah.
i got to go out!!!!
currently have alr earned 288buck.
zomg.
its cool can.
gracy are you jealous?
though i only did 3 vocab words.
ahahahahah. :D

i guess life still suck.
cos' i dont really know whats going on man. :(

argh!
there's no red!
ggaag.
they say its out of stock.
wth.
shit can?
nvm.
i'll settle for.
anw so many people take red liao.
then nvm lor.
i'll take black.
hahah.
singtel suck can?
changing no. too.
oh no.
maybe i'll change to starhub la.

i know i still dont want to and dont wish to.
can i not?
can everything still be like it used to be?
can you answer me?

adapting to life without you,
but in my heart there's still a tinge of hope.

i know its time to really let go because i love you.
so i'm letting go bit by bit everyday, since this is what you wanted me to do anyway.
thanks for letting me make sure that evrything is a fact,
that did really help me come out from deceiving myself again and again.
you were the best and would always be.
THANKS DEAR.

071107
As time passes, you assured me, your love wont change.
but it did, even though its not your fault.
now i can only look at you from far,
see you smile and help you cry
miss you all by myself,
till the day, the day when i dont love you comes.
takecare of yourself.
i'm not sure if everything was real.
but what i know that you said things that were mean to make me hate you.
you jooly well know i am not able to.
but as long as you're happy, i'm alright.
its time i learn how to not rely on you.
and time i learn how to let go.
even though there's still a hope thats in my heart.

oh dear.
i hope my daughter is really alright.
i pray for her cousin to reall get well.
she just went off without her bag that day.
omg.
dear, must be strong kay?
takecare alot, hanqi too.
he needs you guys.
love, mummy.

i'm sorry.
i realised.
but i dont know what i should say.

ARGH.
sooryy.
tmr then upload the photo kay?
...


when i walk through the roads we walked together,
went to the place we went together,
sat on the bus we sat together.
i realise i'm missing you more and more each day.

hello.
i had guides today.
did a great deal of stuff.

sorry.
i just couldnt turn my back and not look at you.
i'm really missing you too much.
i really dont know whats happening.
i cant live without you.
its too difficult.
i cant do it baby.

before.

lala.
i'm being bored.
waiting for you.
he say he'll feel the pain when he wakes up.
isit true.
i dont want.
can i feel the pain.
or will he even wake up.
are the days i dread coming back?
oh no.
i hate this.
but nvm.
i'll wait.
counting the days...
as long as you're happy.
nothing else matters.
=)
thank you.
you're like a dad to me.
always there.