YOS.
went to a party at christmas eve and had lots of fun.
with lil' kids.
they were all little angels.
some were devils man.
omg.
and i cut my hair.
like wtf, i looked weird.
seriously.
shit.
haha. there were lots of people there, i made new friends and old friends too.
and became a babysitter for a day lor.
omg. zavier, zan, hovan, en-en, belinda, tarnia and whole lot more.
hha. esp, zavier he's a great bouncer, like tigger. had fun, zan too, she was real cute.
hahha. they were all nice people.
hahaha.
hey dears, merry chritmas.
played with me till 12 plus.
koo right?
little kids playing till 12 plus. hahah.
anw, i did hmwk with lisi, ken and zs at the airport during christmas.
hahah. they didnt really do la. they copied mine can?
but i finished 40 vocab word leh.
then cos my phones sms service spoil must repair.
or else would have waited with them for jo.
haha. my sun came back what.
gracy's coming back tday too.
koo ey?
anyone interested in countdown?
but i'm not sure if i'm allowed to stay out till two. argh.
count me in if any of you guys going ya?
(:
byee. updates coming soon.
and photos.

WEDNESDAY.
was class bbq. (:
we had great fun.
cycled, shot water guns, played our heart out, bbq-ed took pictures...
it was really a great day la.
will really miss E6 next year.
cos' we were a class.
we had real fun tgt.
bullying people, standing up for ourselves, helping people...
being a class isnt easy, but we did it.
althought we had conflicts among ourselves...
quarrels and arguement but evrything would always come to an end and we'ld shake hands and be friends again. (:
our parties and stuff were always sucessful cos of everyones efforts.
lessons werent really boring cos we had jokers.
but among the jokers were people who wre serious.
people who could draw
people who knew all abt playing
people who were damn rich or damn poor
people who were happy
people who were emo-ed
people who goes out all day long
people does go out at all
people who are cry babies
people who were real funny
people of different dialects
people of diff races
people of diff believes
but we all came into this class.
this class that wouldnt be forgotten.
it may not be said to each other
but we all know we'll miss everything we had done tgt.

i talked to korkor.
first pat of the convo:


家進 jiajin; says:
lol.so despo ar.
家進 jiajin; says:
long hair guys very shuai
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
hhaah
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
no la
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
you go watch taiwan dramas
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
wlao
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
they damn shuai lor
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
seriously
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
i now drama craze can
家進 jiajin; says:
-.- haha.okay okay.relax
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
you dou niu yao bu yao?
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
the drama hebe act in one?
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
wlao that guy damn handsome can
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
(:
家進 jiajin; says:
lol
家進 jiajin; says:
haha
家進 jiajin; says:
okay

korkor very cute. (:

then 2nd part, we were bitching :D
abt girls.

家進 jiajin; says:
girl say break den break.wtf.like treat us as what
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
hah
家進 jiajin; says:
when they bored they use us as puppet
家進 jiajin; says:
when they not bored
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
no la
家進 jiajin; says:
dumb us like rubbish
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
i never lor
家進 jiajin; says:i kno alr
家進 jiajin; says:lar
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
((:
家進 jiajin; says:
hahah
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
cos i'm the nicest l
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
ma
ms dale i talk to you, but i dont know what to say. says:
hahaa

hhaha. relax. (:
see' i'm the nicest.
even jiajin says so. -.- ??
haha. i'm lame.

today is class bbq.
hhaha.
i guess our class would take damn lot of pic.
hahha. i'll upload those pics tmr i guess.
takes time la. (:
and the other also.
all at once, oh my god. :D

ITS SOMETHING WAS GONE AND IT CAME BACK AGAIN,
IT WOULD STILL BE GONE EARLIER OR LATER.

YESTERDAY guides chalet turned out quite badly la.
many things PISSED ME OFF lor.
i felt the WORST i never felt before.
i really dont know whats wrong with me or what.
haiish.
the first is that, my daughter doesnt reply msges.
i dont know whats wrong wrong with her and this is the point i'm getting abit BU SHUANG.
then i was some kind of supposed to meet them,
but when i was at tampines mrt(we were supposed to meet at ws) i smsed them and they told me they were alr going back.
I GOT PANGSEHED AGAIN.
so nvm.
called HY.
then she told me they were alr on the way back.
but asked her if she could wait for me cos i was alr reaching.
like in five mins.
but she said DONT WANT.
when i reach downtown, call her she come and fetch me.
then i was like okayy. NVM.
I reached ws and it some kind of stopped drizzling.
i thought anw, i walked from ws to downtown.
on the way, it started rain quite HEAVILY and i was quite WET alr.
bcoming LUO TANG JI.
so i called my LAOPO but my dearest DAUGHTER answered.
so i asked her if she or one of them could like bring an UMBRELLA in case the rain gets bigger and i become a LUO TANG JI.
so she called out asking everyone whether any of them was willing to fetch me.
but from what i heard there wasnt any answer accept for her telling me.
"mummy its not raining alr", but in front of me were drops of rain falling down.
anyway. she insisted on it wasnt raining.
i knew no one wanted to even walk this short distance to pick me up.
so nvm, i had to depend on myself.
she suddenly like said, haiya i come and pick you up la.
like i'm so PATHETIC and that i would die there if no one came.
so walked there, as the rain fell on me as i was walking, my heart was crying really hard,like it was raining too.
i was some kind of really dissapointed abt IT.
but it was some kind good too. at least i got to know that no one really CARED or what.
i didnt know how to get there too, i was like a LOST lamb out of the woods, not know how to get home.
ACTIONS speak louder than WORDS.
although people always say they care, you'll know whether they really care when something happens. SEE?
and when i needed to cry really cry, cos this really affected my mood, no one was there for me, NO ONE.
in my heart there was alot of people i would want and would be there for,
and that i believe they might be there for me, but this may all be just me making myself feel better?
i dont know. but those feelings really sucked.
tears were held back.
maybe everyone would say want to cry just cry.
but there wasnt anyone for me to cry to, there wasnt anyone for me to lean on or at least lend me their shoulders. nothing.
there wasnt hugs to gimme comfort.
i can just contained everything inside me.
this was the first thing that made my mood really change.
i wasnt really keen on going there alr and stuff.
i didnt think it would fun alr.
but i thought to myself.
why let other people affect you mood so badly.
who cares.
whe i was on the way there, my phone rang and rang, i didnt want to ans.
i didnt feel like answering.
i got no mood to.
nvm.
but i met laopo on my way there.
cheys, she was the one calling so many times,
she was the ONE so worried for me,
she was the ONE that at least CARED.
sorry dear. for my bad mood from the start.
but i serious alr got some kind of pissed off and abit withdrawn from them.


this was the first part. (:
then later on, i went to learn the dance step in the toilet,
i was supposed to dance with them for the seniors.
okay lor.
after that me laopo and yunjing prepared bananas with choco.
very nice leh. YUMMY!
hahah.
its damn cool.
then we made ourself a super BIG one for dessert later on.
barberqueing started althoughh it was was some kind of raining.
hahha.
half naked guys were all arnd which is so diao -.-
but nvm.
the rain stopped soon.
ate chicken wings crabsticks hotdog bananas.
didnt really drink.
me and vic went some where to eat and lastly practice.
cos' we're PARTNERS again. :D
then the dance people all disappeared leaving me and laopo behind.
like nvr ever include us when they practise la.
wth.
we wanted to go take our stuff and go find them.
then the maams came up with FIGHT. (fake one la, they're just acting)
everyone believed them EXCEPT me and vic. (we believed that kathy maam was fainting la)
these are all so LAME.
so we called melissa they all up, then went to find them.
but on the way, they called and ORDERED us to be back at the chalet right away.
WTF.
nvm.
then everything turned out fake.
wtf.
we celebrated xiao qins bday.
then ltr madeline got angry, cos we at first got alot of stuff planned but just because of the maam's tricks everything went WRONG.
wth.
then most of them DISSAPPEARED again.
not answering calls.
until finally hy answered her and sounded so pissed off at vic.
wtf. nabei.
whats wrong with her?
like damn angry liao.
so me vic and gloria went downtown to buy some stuff, walked arnd.
then we saw this two gangster guys.
cos' i was eating tao huey.
so i overheard them planning how to walk past us. cos we not walk straight line or what we were like all separated.
then they were like walk between them then blah blah blah.
one of them were smoking some more.
lame people are like them. -.-

then er, gloria went back i wanted to go but my dad wanted to watch the channel u 10 oclock show, witch youxi.
so i waited there lor.
they came back afterwards.
but everything wasnt okay.
when i went back, CL AND SPL called me to apologise.
i really feel that there isnt really anything to apologise abt also la.
i dont CARE alr.
anw, i comforted laopo cos becos of this she was really more pissed off.
take care laopo. (:
i'll be here man.
SORRY ABT THIS URBER LONG POST.
PEOPLE DONT TAKE WHAT I SAID TO HEART TOO.
LEAVE YOU COMMENTS IN MY FRIENDSTER INSTEAD CAN?
THANKS. ;D

handsome people rocks! (:


賀軍翔(鬥牛要不要),
鄭元暢(惡作劇之吻),
吴尊(公主小妹),
言承旭(流星花園).
omg.
too shuai!
[:

hey poeple
i lost my wallet ytd.
if found pls return to any mrt stations.
thank you.
haiish.
and my phone's bluetooth like got abit prob leh.

nabei.
and i think i'm falling sick.
hiyeer.

i mss yi wei.
come back soon dear! ):

my eye swelled bigger lor.
painpain.
its pimple in the eye!
omg.
ytd went to polyclinic.
it was raining so heavy.
and i didnot umbrella.
some kind of got drenched.
so cool.
the doctor nicenice.
my eye painpain.
he gimme, eyedrops,pill and eye ointment.
argh.
suddenly found out that i got tons of suff to do.
and i'm only left with 3 to 4 weeks.
nvm.
chionging my hmwk.
i think now until the rest of the month.
wont be going for lunch! ):

my eye became more swollen today.
i slept on my rooms floor ytd.
underneath me was one a blanket.
i had one pillow that i laid on and another for me hug.
and you know what.
cos' i'm afraid of insects and i had nothing to cover me.
i used a towel.
its like so pathetic man.


then in the middle of the night my dad carried me to keith's bed.
so sweet right?
but i like so heavy man.
hhaa.
he did not wake me i guess, or he did, its just that i was too tired and could not wake up.
thanks dad. ;D

yawns. i dont know why i feeling so so tired these days.
and oh ya.
maybe i got the same thing as kaiping.
you know her eye the last time?
hahaha.
or maybe i kana eye cancer.
or others who know.

yay!
meeting gracy later.
she's accompanying me the doctor's.
so sweet right?
thanks dear! (:

i dont know whats happening to me.
i may seem strong and happy ouside.
but my heart aches every minute.
sigh.
and yesterday the most terrible thing happened.
my eyes became swollen, i dont really know why.
its only one eye and its the outside la.
so my dad came out with gis idea from putting the mopiko.
and it kinda burnt my eyelids can. so soon i fell asleep.
in the middle of the night, i did not know what happened.
cant rmb la.
i screamed and screamed.
like something has gotten over.
i dont know what.
that was the cause of everyone's wake.
it ended up that my dad had to change place with keith
after i calm down.
cos i was sleeping with keith before that.
i calmed down and fell asleep straight.

in the morning, mum woke me up.
but i kinda forgot what happened .
i was surprised that i was sleeping with dad.
so i asked mum, why was dad sleeping with me?
she looked at me with that pissed off face.
like i'm really useless.
and said, i thik you better go back to your room and sleep next time.
dont shout and scream in the night like crazy woman.
suddenly, memories of me shouting flowed back.
but till now, i still dont know the cause of my shouting, i guess it should be my bro.
this incident made me think abt everything that has been happening.
and how each and everyone had the impact on me.
tears started flowing from my heart.
i thought and thought.
but i really dont know what i should do.
usually, i had you. in the past.
now i'm alone fighting all these things.
i will continue to stuggle till the very end.
thanks dad.
i know you're best.

you need not do it.
now i know whats happening.
i always do.

but nvm.
wo bu pei.